Skip to main content

I am a Fraud.



I am a fraud.

A fake. A great pretender.

I fill my days with the never-ending battle of maintaining the foolish façade of my existence.

I feed on confidence and admiration from the perception of others. But they do not know me.

They do not meet the monster within.

She is a torture which only I must endure.

I hide her away, ashamed of the darkness and the decay.

I have become accustomed to her sneering voice of doubt and malice, gnawing away at the back of my mind.

I'm an expert at pretending to be a person that I wish I was.

I'm not sure when it began, but I know exactly how it will end.

And only once it does, will everyone see the fraud that lies within me.

Comments

Post a Comment

Thoughts?

Popular posts from this blog

The Truth.

Promise me not to waste your time, or mine, with pointless pleasantries or foolish niceties. Give me the harsh, brutal, truth. Let me find comfort in the reality of your honesty, instead of numbness  in the fairy tale of your lies. I would much rather the bitter sting swallowing a harsh pill, than to choke on the sickly syrup of honeyed words.  Speak your truth.
Post a Comment
Read more

Surviving University

Hello again my lovely readers! It's been a while since the last time I posted, so my apologies. I guess I got a little wrapped up in my own little world, and forgot the importance of taking a little time to sit down and clear your mind. Blogs are an amazingly useful tool, even for something as simple as giving you a chance to vent all those niggling thoughts in the back of your brain. It's kind of like spinning plates... You get so caught up trying to keep everything going and try so hard not to let anything fall, that you don't give yourself a chance to just be yourself. But once again, I digress. Here goes. So in the second year of university, I think the biggest thing I've learnt is what NOT to do. Unfortunately I learnt the hard way, but on the bright side, hopefully by reading this you will have the sense to avoid making the same mistakes! And although some may seem like obvious blunders, it doesn't take much to make something appear like a great idea. May...
Post a Comment
Read more

ASIAN ADVENTURE PART II

Hello world! So it's day three of my wonderful little adventure around S.E.A (if you don't know about it, read my previous post!), and so far I've spent all the time in Saigon. I completely love it here, the city is truly alive with activity, the streets buzz with the energy of its citizens and the buildings tower with opportunity. I definitely feel at home here. But alas, here's what I've been up to! DAY 1: I finally arrived in Saigon after an exhausting 25 hours on planes and in airports! It was 9PM here and I was completely wiped-out, but desperate to get out and explore! So, after finding the Hotel, hastily showering and getting ready, I headed out to the liveliest part of the city. Here, I met a lovely bicycle taxi man who took me up to an English speaking bar which served food all night - great for me as I had avoided plane food all day! The meal only cost 65,000 Vietnamese Dong, which is around £2 GBP. As well as this, all the bars on this strip served beer...
Post a Comment
Read more