I am a fraud. A fake. A great pretender. I fill my days with the never-ending battle of maintaining the foolish façade of my existence. I feed on confidence and admiration from the perception of others. But they do not know me. They do not meet the monster within. She is a torture which only I must endure. I hide her away, ashamed of the darkness and the decay. I have become accustomed to her sneering voice of doubt and malice, gnawing away at the back of my mind. I'm an expert at pretending to be a person that I wish I was. I'm not sure when it began, but I know exactly how it will end. And only once it does, will everyone see the fraud that lies within me.
Hey! My name, as you may have guessed above, is Lauren, and this is my little safe space to share any random ramblings about life, the universe and everything. If you've found this page, it's either because you're as weird as I am, and you're searching for someone else who finds the world a difficult place and is trying to make sense of it all... Or you're here because you know me and you're hoping to figure out just how weird I really am. Either way, welcome, and enjoy.