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Hello there, world wide web...

So it's the last day of August, and I didn't want to ruin my current streak of monthly Blog updates! But, in truth, the thing I need to talk about is without a doubt the hardest thing I will ever have to write about. So much has changed since my last post to you all. The girl who wrote of falling foolishly in love less than a month ago, feels a whole world away from the girl writing to you now.

A few things need to be said, need to be cleared up, and I need to be as open as I can about what's in my head. Because that way, maybe I can stop letting it consume my thoughts and move on from torturing myself with what-if's. Maybe I can give myself a shred of hope of getting back to myself. And so, something as meaningful and close to the heart as I aim to share with you all, takes time. And tissues!

I promise that something is coming.

Hopefully it'll be worth the wait, and you can be entertained by the ironic injustice of my life, while I gain some closure. But in the mean time, please be patient!

Sorry that this post is woefully boring.

And sorry that I'm apparently atrocious at dealing with life!

I'll update soon.

But, until then, please enjoy this beautiful song that I think is rather fitting!

Thanks for reading, over and out.

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Too much

I would lie on burning coals, scorch my soul, if it spared your feet from the heat. I'd devote my hectic days, and sleepless nights, to making yours just a little brighter. I would give my every cent, happily spent, to make you smile for a while. All I ask in return is to always feel beautiful, wanted, treasured, and adored. To know, without a single doubt, that I'm yours. Your one and only, now and always. So tell me, honestly, am I asking for too much?

Sinking Ships

Can somebody please tell me how to fix this sinking ship? Because I'm exhausted. I've given my all to bailing out these frigid waters, fighting against the relentless surge. I waste every breath, every thought, every effort, to confining an endless tide. I cannot stop. But I'll drown out here, cold and alone, if I don't pause, find the source and fix this broken vessel. So teach me how to plug the gap before it kills me.

Chasing Sunset

Tonight, for whatever reason, I found myself pondering what the hell I was doing... In life, in love, in my job, my personal aspirations, my family and my friends. I wasn't necessarily worrying, or spiralling, or caught up in a depressive mentality. Alas, I was simply contemplating where I was right now, and what was next for me. Whether I was on the right path, where it would lead, and when I would get there. I was too focused on my feet, on where my journey was taking me, that I temporarily forgot. I forgot to enjoy exactly where I was right now, no matter where I was going or where I had been. But thankfully, life sent me a little reminder. As I passed the upstairs window, consumed by my own thoughts, I was met by the most beautiful sunset I had seen in a long time. The sky was on fire, and it sparked a fire in me. Instantly, I knew that I wanted to seize this moment. Without a second thought, I grabbed my keys and jumped into the car. And so began my journey to chase the sunset...

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