The Random Ramblings of Lauren

I dislike mirrors. They taunt me with all the ways I will never be the person I so desperately yearn to see. I thought I was beautiful. People used to tell me so. But looking back at me is a stranger I do not know. When did I get so pale?  So fat? So exhausted? So broken? I hate mirrors. I avoid them at all costs. But more than anything, I hate the person I have become. So I'll avoid mirrors, until the day comes that I can accept my reflection or change my perception.

So, hello again! I guess I've been away a while, haven't I? I never intended to leave, but then again, I never intended to start a blog in the first place. Alas, it seems that I got out of the habit of using writing to help me process and deal with the trials and tribulations of daily existence. I found myself not dealing with things, or dealing with things in the wrong way, and it was only when I realised this that I remembered what the sense of calm and joy I found in writing. I lost the power of my voice, or rather, I allowed someone else to take it from me. I allowed someone to make me believe I had no voice and no power at all. So I've not been speaking my truth for quite a while. I've forgotten the power and potential of words, and how they help give meaning to life. But I'm back. And I'm sorry it's been a while. But I'm intending to stick around for the foreseeable. And if you're reading this, I guess that means that you hung around, or you...